Freedom of Destiny

My Loving-Kindness exercise, once I close my eyes and able to be comfortable. Then I stretch my body and take a practice deep breathing 5 xs.  Then I rest and calm my body for ten minutes and relax. When I am thinking about my day and weekends that what did I do. About depression, anger, tired, family issue, etch. I ask myself, dear god, I think this thing what’s happening to my life is my destiny and challenges. It’s like blood is thicker than water. Then I visualize myself than I am running saying god give some strength that I can do this (3x refrain), that all my challenges in negative feelings I had that I can survive. Once I pretend that I am running, I felt that my energy, my negative thoughts or feelings, that when I am thinking about god, it feels that I need to love myself more. Then when I am catching my breath, once again, I practice 10 minutes pause. I felt that my tense and hypertension got lighter

These exercise assessment in four levels aspect of life. In my experience I’ve always have a hard time dealing with my siblings. I’ve always have frustration and anger when we communicate. They think they’ve always right, because they are older than me. I keep shouting when we back to back conversation. The reason I shouted because I know that my gut feelings that I am right about what I become. I can’t win to them; they think that I am a loser person. To calm and release my negative emotions, I stop and go outside for a fresh air. So that all frustration coming from my chest, my mind that I release. Then I talk to god for my prayer asking him for make me stronger and heal my emotion. Once I prayed and repeat as many times I want. My depression, anger, and emotion have release. I felt my body is not shivering anymore. Once I go to bed, I can be ease a stillness of my mind, body and releasing my mental activity between psychospiritual, interpersonal and worldly.

I discover about myself that I am a passive and easily person as of my attitude. I guess to be aggressive and believe on myself no matter challenge I get every day. Why, because I don’t want anyone take advantage on me that I am a nice person. I think one example is to practice a toastmaster is a good communication activity. A lot of any exercise activity that I need to do it most of the time, like running, meditation, praying, eating the right food that can help me to implement the greater wellness.